Ever since I can reminisce, I have not always been obsessed with the desire to become rich like the famous, Microsoft tycoon—Bill Gates; not even insecure when my classmates who are actually blessed with luck and fortune, rode in an elegant limousine or a brand-new Toyota Vios. I did not know why I kept on living with simplicity like David Thoreau. I really was contented of what I had, and that kept me moving on through all the days of my lives. It seemed to me that my life’s revolution turned it to be so routinely, that in life, as everyone can say, enough is enough—like being satisfied with eating three times a day, going to school, and playing with friends—just as simple as that. I was not so fervor to achieve what was beyond my reach because I would only spend time thinking of the impossible dreams—very surrealistic. With it I am a bit satisfied with what I have known in my own little world.
Of course, as a child, I was unconscious of everything that appeared through my vision. It portrayed meaningless for me, for I did not know how to evaluate every event or scenario that was bound to happen. In other words, I was immature. Though it seemed peculiar that a young child would dream to visit to the United States or to the Taj Mahal palace in India, it really meant that I was too young to handle life so miraculously that no little minds could think of. But, in my thought, someday when time would allow I could visit those places, too.
As I grew up, everything has changed all of a sudden. I was eighteen, and I realized that being an adult has to do with webbed obligations—so complicated that I was being hooked into it. Yet, it was that year that my life seemed to be going painful and that life is not always a bed of roses. I was only fresh eighteen that I experienced a psychological distress—a complete mess. My family underwent employment downswing in which I could no longer find ways to pull back so I could stand it over again. Then, I decided to stop studying. It was my main recourse to solve my problems. I stopped schooling for four years and in those years I noticed that my life remained immobile as I experienced the same way before. Like any other I was bound to change. I became responsible in every decision I made. But, what made me change was the fact that life is so painful—really not easy! How one could find any ray of hope when that person is governed by bitterness? And that is the question.
On the other hand, my mom, as she grew older, remained quiet, venturing any course so we could survive. She cried every night thinking what to give to my sisters and brothers in their daily allowance. Sometimes I asked myself how to help my family. I pitied on them that I eagerly dared face any walks of such concomitant life. I became a helpmate in a big department store. I worked everything that could support me and my family for that young age. However, things did not get even better. So I decided to get my college education. According to my professors, it is a preparation for life. No one sent me off, but it was my will to pursue it for I believe College Education is indeed a treasure that no one can steal—a treasure that builds a new life.
Yet, I came to college with my own expenses. There I experienced the hardest thing in life that no mortal being could hold on to. There were days when I felt myself that I was out of nowhere. I might have said that I would give up, but I optimistically stood on my philosophy to acquire a degree. I might lose my hope for it seemed that the world had forsaken me. Was that really true? Or really it was just a mere test at this most billowing trenchant life. Yeah, it really was. When I finished my college, with flying colors, I could see flickering lights from heaven—heaven in a sense that someone beyond many eyes has controlled and given me life, knowledge, and hope.
I believe now the dictum that goes, “If you can hardly face many hedges in life, ask assistance from God”. It is really true that God gives and provides all the rests. I was right then when I made my first step to get college education, for I changed my personal perspective. Yet, I started to project life into a wider view of a lucrative lifestyle. I knew it now that I started to be somebody –like Bill Gates or even the most well-known persons in the world. And this all was happened when I made my first step.
Of course, as a child, I was unconscious of everything that appeared through my vision. It portrayed meaningless for me, for I did not know how to evaluate every event or scenario that was bound to happen. In other words, I was immature. Though it seemed peculiar that a young child would dream to visit to the United States or to the Taj Mahal palace in India, it really meant that I was too young to handle life so miraculously that no little minds could think of. But, in my thought, someday when time would allow I could visit those places, too.
As I grew up, everything has changed all of a sudden. I was eighteen, and I realized that being an adult has to do with webbed obligations—so complicated that I was being hooked into it. Yet, it was that year that my life seemed to be going painful and that life is not always a bed of roses. I was only fresh eighteen that I experienced a psychological distress—a complete mess. My family underwent employment downswing in which I could no longer find ways to pull back so I could stand it over again. Then, I decided to stop studying. It was my main recourse to solve my problems. I stopped schooling for four years and in those years I noticed that my life remained immobile as I experienced the same way before. Like any other I was bound to change. I became responsible in every decision I made. But, what made me change was the fact that life is so painful—really not easy! How one could find any ray of hope when that person is governed by bitterness? And that is the question.
On the other hand, my mom, as she grew older, remained quiet, venturing any course so we could survive. She cried every night thinking what to give to my sisters and brothers in their daily allowance. Sometimes I asked myself how to help my family. I pitied on them that I eagerly dared face any walks of such concomitant life. I became a helpmate in a big department store. I worked everything that could support me and my family for that young age. However, things did not get even better. So I decided to get my college education. According to my professors, it is a preparation for life. No one sent me off, but it was my will to pursue it for I believe College Education is indeed a treasure that no one can steal—a treasure that builds a new life.
Yet, I came to college with my own expenses. There I experienced the hardest thing in life that no mortal being could hold on to. There were days when I felt myself that I was out of nowhere. I might have said that I would give up, but I optimistically stood on my philosophy to acquire a degree. I might lose my hope for it seemed that the world had forsaken me. Was that really true? Or really it was just a mere test at this most billowing trenchant life. Yeah, it really was. When I finished my college, with flying colors, I could see flickering lights from heaven—heaven in a sense that someone beyond many eyes has controlled and given me life, knowledge, and hope.
I believe now the dictum that goes, “If you can hardly face many hedges in life, ask assistance from God”. It is really true that God gives and provides all the rests. I was right then when I made my first step to get college education, for I changed my personal perspective. Yet, I started to project life into a wider view of a lucrative lifestyle. I knew it now that I started to be somebody –like Bill Gates or even the most well-known persons in the world. And this all was happened when I made my first step.
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