On Speaking Tamaraw English

The trouble begins here.There have been many times that I usually speak jagged and crooked English.I speak of very weird sentence construction like, "How is you my dear?", "The carabao is flying.", or even this tricky statement "I jumped on the wall." How difficult it is that I must be in trouble finding the right track in it.The trouble begins when I utter words, and I feel shy pronouncing them. I am conscious about my environment--the people around me. Maybe, they may laugh out loud if I speak of the wrong pronunciation. Besides, I am not articulate.The trouble begins in me. I do not know how. That is why, when lots of those friends speak English fluently, I can hardly imagine myself dealing with them using my Tamaraw English. I have no choice, do I?. If you were in my shoes and someone asked you to talk,of course, you would speak of the same language they were using, right? Yes, and that the trouble grows. However, I must look for something better--a treatment which ends the problem.Yet, the trouble ends there if I practice speaking. Maybe, I can practice at home, in school,or in a place where there will be no people. I must write and speak good English constantly.So the terror brought by this ignorance and shyness will vanish, and on speaking Tamaraw English will never be heard anymore.